Monday, 1 September 2008

... and her spirit soared!

I sincerely thought that I would have written about this a lot earlier. When I returned from the States in July, I was itching to write, record, recall, remember anything and everything on my journey in Espanola.
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But the many moments spent in front of the screen always yielded the same result - a beautifully blank page :)

I've learnt that the more profound the experience, the greater the silence that follows. The silence is a result of a simple dilemma: where to start (because the journey began years before I boarded the plane), what to skip over (because even the simple act of opening the tent flap every morning was a blessing), who to leave out (because I could talk for ages even about random hugs and smiles from people who shared my space).

And so I am resigned - trying to write about it is futile, as the only thing I'll succeed in doing is short-changing the reader as I trip and fall over words in a vain attempt to describe a spirit-soaring experience.

Instead I hope my pictures will help me do some of the talking. Here is the the lense through which I lived those few weeks.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/29918597@N03/sets/72157607052439459/

Still, feel free to corner me and ask... I LOVE to talk about my time in Espanola (as some have painfully realised :p). Some of my favourite memories are about The Rise Up Minstrel and its Cacti-dodging Adventures, waking the Sun up at Morning Sadhana, The Fuzzy White Lines through the corner of my Eye during Tantric, The Forehead-Floor reunions during my visits to My Solstice Sanctuary, The Beautiful Beanie-Gloves-Shawl-Sunblock Relationship, Prayer Beads dancing through my Mind during Meditations, the Guru speaking to me in Spanish, the All-Night Lullaby that put the Universe to sleep, receiving Amrit for the First Time - again.

And of course, the all-time winner, Ishnaan Seva at Espanola Gurdwara, where Water raced down the Blessed Marble to reach the Golden Temple in my Heart. In those few moments I was truly in Amritsar.

I lived several lifetimes, crossed world-oceans, lost myself, found myself, discovered pain, discovered release, clung on, let go, hugged, laughed, cried. I bow eternally to that time and space, where emotion brewed in a pot and released the aroma of bliss.

I cannot end this post without sending out buckets of love and thanks to wonderful Shanti and Tyaga, for hosting us, feeding us, introducing us to Noah and Meeta, and most importantly, giving our minds and souls a home. Even a soaring spirit needs a santuary to rest in :)

And of course, thank you, Yogi Ji, for helping me pave my way to Guru Ram Das :D

Wednesday, 16 July 2008

Lost and Found

I lost my Kara last week.
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It was there one moment, and just like that, gone in the next. I simply could not recall the last time I’d seen it, or how it had come off.
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I spent the first few minutes in denial – it’s always always always been there and I could still feel its weight on my wrist and hear the clink whenever I rested my arm on the table. I’m very organised with my things and losing them unsettles me right to my hair tips. I’d had this Kara for over 12 years, and now it was gone.
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What I wasn’t prepared for was how alone that made me feel.
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We’re brought up to understand the Kara in many different ways; as a symbol of Oneness, a reminder of the Circle of Life and Death, something for God to latch on to, a representation of the connection we have to everything around us...
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At the back of my mind I know all this, but I don’t think I ever consciously lived it. The Kara is one of the first few things our parents stick on us as babies and I guess we get used to it so early that we just don’t think about it much.
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But that day, when I lost it, wow. The feeling of incompletion was just so overwhelming; and the question that kept running through my head was: how will my Guru hold me now?
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It was an experience of being stripped so bare, that no one would ever be able to identify me and I would never belong again. My Kara had become so much a part of my identity, so much a part of me, that without it I became completely invisible.
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That week was full and busy and eventful and exhausting, and yet when I look back, all I seem to remember is that it was the week when I was bare and alone. And when I finally went to Gurdwara on Saturday, I rushed to the stall and grabbed hold of any Kara that would have me. It turned out to be a really cheap-looking, thin and flimsy 3 ringgit Kara, and yet the moment was priceless – suddenly my skin felt like mine again and I… belonged. I regained the lost connection; I was comforted that my Guru would be able to reach out and hold me again.
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And it’s just as they say – sometimes you need to lose something before you can gain something else. By creating a vacuum, you draw in the energy needed to fill the space.
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And the vacuum left by that Kara was filled with the realisation that my Kara went beyond completing my Circle of Life and Death, or connecting me to the rest of creation…
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It was there to complete ME, to make ME whole, to bind MY mind, body and spirit, to unite MY soul with God’s. It was MY circle and it brought me together within myself. God and me, me and God, are one.
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And because of that, He can Never Let Me Go.
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Phew :p

Saturday, 14 June 2008

The One Where She Goes to Espanola...

There are some experiences you know you just have to have - and over the last few years, the 3HO Summer Solstice Celebration has had that pull on me. Come 2008, even Mataji starts itching to go..... and ta-da! A trip is planned and we'll be on our way in just a few hours :)
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So while you wait for me to come back and tell you all about it, enjoy the pictures from my experience at the 2006 Yoga Festival in France – There aren’t that many pictures and admittedly they aren’t that good either… but I was too busy with my soul to worry about worldly things like cameras and the like :)
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The Big Top, where all the group yoga and meditation sessions took place, including Tantric

Yoga in the Big Top

The most fascinating thing about sessions here was that everyone sat in their language groups. Since people come from all over Europe and English may not have been their first language, there were a few translators who would stand up in their little circles and explain what was being said. It was pretty neat to hear the Guru's word being translated into French, Dutch, German, Spanish, Portuguese, Dutch, Italian...:)

Sunrise just after morning sadhana

There is nothing like doing sadhana to live music :)

The Gurdwara was packed on the day of the weddings - of course some were just waiting for the prashaad :)

During the lavaan

Getting ready for Tantric

Tessa and my Tantric neighbours during our second day

All Whites! Taking a break in between Tantric

All set for the Happy, Healthy, Holy experience :)
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Love, Peace and Light to all,
Satnam

Monday, 9 June 2008

Of Chocolate and Cinnamon… and Beautiful Cubes of Brown Sugar

Apparently, I am faced with one really big dilemma (amongst others, of course, but this one is a Biggie). Well I can’t say I’m alone in this, for millions others are also afflicted with this awkward reality.
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Our predicament? We are Brown.
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I was at the pharmacy today – arguably a place that should be retailing either items to restore my health, or those that make me feel good. Yet as I browsed along the shelves, I grew increasingly troubled at the frequency at which one word was repeated. From face cream to moisturiser to shower gel, apparently the quickest way to get products off the shelf was to slap on one defining word: ‘whitening’.

This is all the more concerning when you think about the racial make-up of my country, which is approximately 60% Malay, 30% Chinese and 8% Indian – which means that excluding the Chinese, who are already naturally fair, there is 68% of the population being told that they should be having sleepless nights at the thought that their skin isn’t comparable to the colour of chalk.

And I do, seriously, mean chalk. Because those ads are not referring to a healthy fair skin that the other half of the world’s population is blessed with. They are referring to… chalk.

This bugs me for two reasons – first, that I too now am the un-proud owner of whitening moisturiser – because even those of us who do not support such unashamedly confidence-bashing advertising are left with no choices. The ‘whitening’ stamp is now akin to a quality control certificate – if you don’t have it, your product won’t make it to the shelf. This maelstrom, however. will be short-lived – for on my next trip overseas I’m going to hunt down some plain Jane kind of lotion with no references to colour, and I’m going to stack up enough to last me the next 100 years or so. Sigh – the troubles and tribulations of being Brown…… don’t get me started on being left-handed :p

The second bug-me factor is not so easily healed – and here I’m referring to the so, so, so many women out there – especially Indian women, who look in the mirror everyday wishing for a snowfall that will wash away their colour. And naturally, as people are their own worst enemies, these women are not just battling effective advertising, but also pressure from their own families and communities, where the first thing anyone wants to know about someone’s girlfriend/daughter-in-law/newborn baby is: ‘Is she fair?’ And once that question is answered, the Writing is On the Wall dah-lin’, and fate is cast in stone.

This issue is something I can relate to, because when I was in my early teens, my skin colour bothered me too. Brown was nice and all, on someone else. But to be honest I wouldn’t have minded being a shade or two… or three…. Oh alright – the colour of chalk.

You wouldn’t think it if you knew me now though :p – today I am as proud and grateful and content as anything at the way my Creator made me. So I have my imperfections, but who doesn’t, eh? Thank God I grew out of that phase and discovered how much I loved being the colour of the earth and melted chocolate and curled cinnamon sticks!

But my point is that even for someone like me, who grew up in a family where the colour conversation never made it to the dinner table, who was encouraged to spend most of her time under the sun whilst having a non-existent relationship with sun block until recent years, who took no nonsense from anyone, and knew full well that advertising is a money-making sham where people are wheedled into wanting things they could in fact be quite happy without……… even that someone had her faith shaken as a little girl – all because some half-starved, malnourished, chalk-faced model on tellie insisted that she was the definition of beauty and the rest of us should be killing ourselves to look like her.

And so I worry for all those Beautiful Cubes of Brown Sugar scattered across the globe, those for whom colour is the only conversation at the dinner table, sunshine is sin, and fashion magazines the answer to all the world’s problems. For no matter how brightly their personality sparkles, it is simply not given the chance to shine through their dark skin.

And I want to say to them: Your Brownness is not a blemish, it’s a blessing – and no amount of slapping on that muck is going to change your complexion – unless you want to take it up with God directly. So let it rest and go lie in the sun instead! Don’t forget your sun block though – burns are no fun :)

Brown IS beautiful.

And for the record, so is White, Yellow, Black, Red, Beige……and whatever else I’ve missed out. I am being pro-colour, not pro-Brown – this post looks through the Brown glass because that’s what I can relate to, while I hope there are others out there fighting their own little battles for the right and beauty to be whatever colour they are.

Isn’t it ironic that while one end of the globe is obsessed with getting fairer, the other half sunbathes and visits tanning salons to get darker. Why can’t we all just be comfortable in our own skin, literally!

You know, in spite of the fact that God gave the world so much colour, when it comes to people, I hear that He is, in fact, colour blind.

I think it’d be pretty nice if we were too :)

Saturday, 3 May 2008

Britain's Got Madhu!

Sigh... so I know I've been seriously MIA for a while... and I hope the fact that this post is less than 10 lines long (compared to my usually-endless rantings!) is a testament to how busy things have been.
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But here is something that will make you forget all that and just cheer for Madhu :)
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Madhu you da man!

Thursday, 14 February 2008

The Savage who did not understand

I looooove the Earth. Sometimes I wish She could shrink and I could expand until we are both just the right size for me to give her a great Big Hug :)
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She is to me the simplest example of God’s marvel. Forget the countless stars and galaxies we are told of in science, and also coincidentally (or maybe not!), in Japji. My mind doesn’t even get that far; it just gets stuck when I start thinking of the Earth and how intricate She is.
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Man has rightly bestowed the title ‘Mother’ upon her – for she dotes on us so. She presides over us rain or shine, wind or snow. Man (and beast) has equally found solace in Her arid deserts and vast savannahs, Her dense forests and undulating hills. She is so enbelievably Beautiful and Bountiful - and She smells fabulous, especially right after it rains :)
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But mankind, being mankind, does not always remember to love Her like She does us – and that is exactly the spirit in which Chief Seattle spoke on that day in 1854.
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I first read Chief Seattle’s speech for a school assignment. It is described as ‘one of the most beautiful and profound statements’ ever made on the environment.
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Bear in mind that there is a great deal of controversy on the origins speech; in fact there are debates over its very existence. The version below is actually said to be fraudulent; written by a screenwriter for a movie.
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That may very well be true – it does seem too beautiful to have ever been uttered in real life.
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My suggestion? Forget where it comes from. Take it as poetry from a child of Mother Earth.
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Before you read on, you will have to travel back in time to the 1850s, in America, during the struggle between the White Man and the Native Indian.
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INTRODUCTION
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In 1854, the "Great White Chief" in Washington made an offer for a large area of Indian land and promised a `reservation' for the Indian people.
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Chief Seattle's reply has been described as the most beautiful and profound statement on the environment ever made.
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THIS EARTH IS PRECIOUS
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How can you buy or sell the sky, the warmth of the land? The idea is strange to us. If we do not own the freshness of the air and sparkle of the water, how can you buy them?
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ALL SACRED
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Every part of this earth is sacred to my people.
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Every shining pine needle, every sandy shore, every mist in the dark woods, every clearing and humming insect is holy in the memory and experience of my people. The sap which courses through the trees carries the memories of the red man.
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The white man's dead forget the country of their birth when they go to walk among the stars. Our dead never forget this beautiful earth, for it is the mother of the red man.
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We are part of the earth and it is part of us.
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The perfumed flowers are our sisters; the deer, the horse, the great eagle, these are our brothers.
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The rocky crests, the juices in the meadows, the body heat of the pony, and man--all belong to the same family.
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NOT EASY
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So, when the Great Chief in Washington sends word that he wishes to buy land, he asks much of us.
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The Great Chief sends word he will reserve us a place so that we can live comfortably to ourselves. He will be our father and we will be his children. So we will consider your offer to buy our land.
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But it will not be easy. For this land is sacred to us.
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This shining water that moves in the streams and rivers is not just water but the blood of our ancestors.
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If we sell you land, you must remember that it is sacred, and you must teach your children that it is sacred and that each ghostly reflection in the clear water of the lakes tells of events and memories in the life of my people.
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The water's murmur is the voice of my father's father.
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KINDNESS
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The rivers are our brothers, they quench our thirst. The rivers carry our canoes, and feed our children. If we sell you our land, you must remember, and teach your children, that the rivers are our brothers, and yours, and you must henceforth give the rivers the kindness you would give any brother.
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We know that the white man does not understand our ways. One portion of land is the same to him as the next, for he is a stranger who comes in the night and takes from the land whatever he needs.
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The earth is not his brother, but his enemy, and when he has conquered it, he moves on.
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He leaves his father's graves behind, and he does not care. He kidnaps the earth from his children, and he does not care.
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His father's grave, and his children's birthright, are forgotten. He treats his mother, the earth, and his brother, the sky, as things to be bought, plundered, sold like sheep or bright beads.
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His appetite will devour the earth and leave behind only a desert.
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I do not know. Our ways are different from your ways.
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The sight of your cities pains the eyes of the red man. But perhaps it is because the red man is a savage and does not understand.
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There is no quiet place in the white man's cities. No place to hear the unfurling of leaves in spring, or the rustle of an insect's wings.
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But perhaps it is because I am a savage and do not understand.
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The clatter only seems to insult the ears. And what is there to life if a man cannot hear the lonely cry of the whippoorwill or the arguments of the frogs around a pond at night? I am a red man and do not understand.
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The Indian prefers the soft sound of the wind darting over the face of a pond, and the smell of the wind itself, cleaned by a midday rain, or scented with the pinion pine.
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PRECIOUS
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The air is precious to the red man, for all things share the same breath--the beast, the tree, the man, they all share the same breath.
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The white man does not seem to notice the air he breathes.
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Like a man dying for many days, he is numb to the stench.
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But if we sell you our land, you must remember that the air is precious to us, that the air shares its spirit with all the life it supports. The wind that gave our grandfather his first breath also receives his last sigh.
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And if we sell you our land, you must keep it apart and sacred, as a place where even the white man can go to taste the wind that is sweetened by the meadow's flowers.
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ONE CONDITION
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So we will consider your offer to buy our land. If we decide to accept, I will make one condition: The white man must treat the beasts of this land as his brothers.
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I am a savage and I do not understand any other way.
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I've seen a thousand rotting buffaloes on the prairie, left by the white man who shot them from a passing train.
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I am a savage and I do not understand how the smoking iron horse can be more important than the buffalo that we kill only to stay alive.
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What is man without the beasts? If all the beasts were gone, man would die from a great loneliness of spirit.
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For whatever happens to the beasts, soon happens to man. All things are connected.
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THE ASHES
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You must teach your children that the ground beneath their feet is the ashes of your grandfathers. So that they will respect the land, tell your children that the earth is rich with the lives of our kin.
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Teach your children what we have taught our children, that the earth is our mother.
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Whatever befalls the earth befalls the sons of the earth. If men spit upon the ground, they spit upon themselves.
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This we know: The earth does not belong to man; man belongs to the earth. This we know.
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All things are connected like the blood which unites one family. All things are connected.
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Whatever befalls the earth befalls the sons of the earth.
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Man did not weave the web of life: he is merely a strand in it. Whatever he does to the web, he does to himself.
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Even the white man, whose God walks and talks with him as friend to friend, cannot be exempt from the common destiny.
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We may be brothers after all. We shall see.
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One thing we know, which the white man may one day discover, our God is the same God. You may think now that you own Him as you wish to own our land; but you cannot. He is the God of man, and His compassion is equal for the red man and the white.
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This earth is precious to Him, and to harm the earth is to heap contempt on its Creator.
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The whites too shall pass; perhaps sooner than all other tribes. Contaminate your bed, and you will one night suffocate in your own waste.
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But in your perishing you will shine brightly, fired by the strength of God who brought you to this land and for some special purpose gave you dominion over this land and over the red man.
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That destiny is a mystery to us, for we do not understand when the buffalo are all slaughtered, the wild horses are tamed, the secret corners of the forest heavy with scent of many men, and the view of the ripe hills blotted by talking wires.
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Where is the thicket? Gone.
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Where is the eagle? Gone.
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The end of living and the beginning of survival.
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It seems to me, that the 'savage' probably understood it best of all.

Saturday, 19 January 2008

The family that prays together, stays together

The quote above is something my maternal grandparents believe in very strongly. Growing up, every vacation spent at our family home in Ulu Yam included Rehraas (evening prayer) being done together as a family in the living room, right under a frame carrying those very words. (Japji was your own responsibility, and it didn’t matter if you had been chatting until dawn and only woke up at noon – breakfast/ lunch was not served until Japji was done!). This was a pretty amazing feat since we are quite a large family and at any time there would be at least 20 people at home :)
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What may have started as a forced discipline during our adolescence has now grown to a binding knot between us. To us, the grandchildren, prayer is in a way the central theme whenever we go home. It’s really quite nice to have such a beautiful commonness in the family.
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At end-2006, we had a family Akhand Paath (continuous recitation of the Guru Granth Sahib) in our home, and as we loved it so much, we’ve made it an annual family tradition and had our second one recently.
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The Ulu Yam family Akhand Paath operates slightly differently from the norm.
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For one thing, it was Nanaji, our aunts and uncles, and my fellow cousins who read from the Guru - roughly 30 paathis out of a family of almost 50, with ages ranging between 8 and 80 :) As you can imagine, setting the timetable was quite a challenge – we simply had too many paathis!
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agonising over the timetable to make sure everyone had an opportunity to read from the Guru
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Also, we ignore the usual 48-hour tradition – the point here is to take our time and enjoy Baani. In 2006 it took us 67 hours, and this time we’d been practicing a little more so we cropped off 10 hours to make it a nice 57 :) And I’d say it was just nice for everyone to truly enjoy it.
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in the Darbar, we had 2 pothi sahibs and a laptop with the Gurbani computer software, so at any time, there would be a few of us in the Darbar and either following the Paath with a pothi sahib to improve our reading, or following the English translation
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in meditation

Ekjot, our youngest paathi-cousin, warming up with some practice before his turn

our glorious mothers-paathis-chefs taking a break

the eternal Ulu Yam Swing – its been around forever :) Nanaji and the men catching up at tea-time

sleeping in the corridors is an age-old Ulu Yam tradition – even when there are vacant beds we all habitually charge for the floor!

Sharan and Trishvin stumble upon the ideal location for morning nitnem - the kitchen floor :)

on one evening, we headed over to our beautiful little village Gurdwara for an informal kirtan session

I like to think that it is this ‘formula’ for an Akhand Paath that brings it meaning, where the journey matters and not the destination. With everyone making the effort to read the translations, the ritual was transformed to meaningful practice. By keeping it in the family it truly becomes for the family, and with everyone having a hand in something we are reminded of the common roots that bind us.

Coming together like this is a grounding experience. It is this family, with its devotion and its tight knot; this home, with its organised confusion of 50 inhabitants; this village, with its little Gurdwara and vegetable patch, that has shaped so much of who I am.

the family paathis
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Its nice to know that I’m rooted to this place. The roots are strong and go deep; they will not let go and will not let me forget. I may fly high but anytime I need to touch the ground they will find me and hold me safe, until I am ready to spread my wings again. And they will remind me that because we pray together, we will stay together.

Thursday, 3 January 2008

Eastenders come to town!

Last weekend we had some really nice company at home – Preetkamal and Gurcharan are friends from London and they bunked with us for a few days.
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Malaysia is just one of their stops; they are in fact on a 6-month backpacking trip round South East Asia!
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Hearing their stories made me so envious – doing something like that is on the top 5 of my wish list, only I want to cover Latin America instead. The longest Surabhi and I were on the road for was a month. This is 6 months! Envy envy pure primal animal-like envy! :)
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Imagine living out of a little backpack containing only the following: minimal clothes, a pillow case, water purification tablets, flip flops, a Lonely Planet guide (God bless Lonely Planet!), waterless hand cleanser, a good luck charm, train timetables, an insurance policy, a digital camera (totally out of place amongst other meagre posessions!) a secondhand book, pepper spray, a youth discount card, and not much else.
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...Sleeping in strange hard/lumpy/springy/saggy alien beds in shared dorms where the women are slappers and the men snore
...Having your passport scrutinised and stamped at a new country every week
...Retracing history through the backdoor alleys of little towns
...Long, long, long dreamy train journeys
...Hauling your backpack around town in blazing heat because your hostel is closed during the siesta hour
...Swapping travel anecdotes (your most prized possesion!) with other skint backpackers
...Learning to say the 3 most important phrases in the local language:
– thank you;
– please; and
– where is the restroom? :p
...Desperately hunting for vegetarian food in the middle of carnivore-ville
...Enduring endless chatter and deafening silences
...Carrying the baggage of time while walking in ancient ruins
...Going into a church to pray because sometimes you simply can’t find a Gurdwara
...Balancing the budget every night and living on bread rolls and sleeping in train stations in order to be able to afford that museum/ opera/ château/ gallery/ cruise/ walking tour/ train ticket/ tacky souvenir
...Getting lost in sleepy little towns because that part is simply not on your map and where no one understands English/ your version of sign language/ your feeble attempt to vocalise the sentences in your phrasebook
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Did I mention long train journeys? I LOVE long train journeys!
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I have Louis Armstrong in my head...
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Heaven
I’m in Heaven
And my heart beats so
That I can hardly speak
And I seem to find the happiness I seek
When we’re out together
Dancing cheek to cheek
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Hmm... maybe the last sentence needs to be adjusted :)
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Anyway back to Preet and Gurcharan :p. So far they’ve been to Thailand, Indonesia, Singapore and Cambodia as well, and from what I’ve heard they’re having a blast!
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While in Malaysia they also attended the Samelan – which they declare was an incredible experience. Still, wanting to make sure that they would never never ever forget Malaysia, we decided to treat them to some durians! The results were… erm… well. Perhaps you want to hear about that (and many other travel stories) first hand - by visiting their travel blog!
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The next destination is Laos, and they go back to Thailand before heading to their last destination on this trip - India.
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One of my backpacking trips led me to discover what the Empress Sissi of Austria once said: Destinations are only desirable because a journey lies in between.
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So blog-walk with them and enjoy the ride!

Thursday, 27 December 2007

Year end Eye Bags

I've been rather noticeably absent from action (from Blog-la-land) for a while – December is always hectic and this year especially I think I bit off more than I could chew!
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On one hand I was fully swamped with the Malaysian Annual Samelan 2007, which was quite a bit to handle with preparations having begun months earlier. The thought of housing, feeding, and keeping over 1000 people charged up and in Chardi Kala for one week was enough to cause many sleepless nights!
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To top that, in a moment of insanity (or perhaps it was the persuasive tone of a friend’s voice :p), I also committed to helping out at the Bahadur Bachey (BB) Camp in Singapore, which took place the week just before Samelan.
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The back-to-back camp-a-thon meant that the bags under my eyes were set to become a permanent feature :p
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the few pictures I could lay my hands on... if any of you have more then please email them to me!
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Looking back, I wouldn’t have done it any differently – I am so grateful to Jasbir for his persistent insistence that I should go to Singapore, and how awesome the BB Camp would be – which indeed it was. I enjoyed every moment I spent there and the youth of Singapore are truly magnificent. It was structured, detailed, well thought of, and every activity had clear objectives set out. The amount of love and devotion put into this camp makes me smile – knowing that our young kids have sevadars like these around them is so reassuring! Bahadurro you are the bomb – stay explosive!
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The two unforgettable events for me both coincidentally involve candles. The first was the Candlelight Shower - where the electricity tripped and the older girls stood outside the showers with candles in their hands so that the little ones wouldn’t be afraid. Not having any sisters of my own, I just adored the idea of standing guard to protect a little sister from the demons of her imagination.
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And the second was the Candlelight Procession - where a whole series of unfortunate events led to this lovely idea. Picture this: Night-time at the Vadda Gurdwara, dim lights, shadows dancing with the flames of candles that lined the walkways, soothing simran echoing from the walls and silencing the mind.
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A line of wide-eyed children, coming up the stairs, their little feet taking one anticipatory step at a time, watching, seeing, looking, inhaling everything around them. Walking up to the candle stand, lighting their tea-lights. Heading calmly towards the Guru while delicately balancing the flame in their palms and a little wish in their heads. And at the front, kneeling, presenting the light to the Guru, saying their prayer. Joining the sanggat in meditation whilst enjoying a trance-like sense of peace.
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The kids were completely mesmerised; I don’t think any of them had ever shared such a personal moment with the Guru before. It was simply utterly totally absolutely. Adorable. The memory is making me goosepimply. The whole evening turned out beautifully!
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I’m so proud to wear the Bahadur Bacha stamp on my forehead – this is another addition to my 2007 Treasured Memories Chest.
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And the Samelan? Nothing really needs to be said about that. Mataji took me to my first Samelan when I was 2 months old - she was part of the organising team and so I got packed along and handed over to the babysitting squad. That decision has shaped so much in my life - I have grown up in the Samelan environment, in the cradle of the Malaysian sanggat; and so to me, going for the Samelan is not even a choice, it’s a given :)
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(The above 3 photos were taken from the Samelan 2007 Blog. For more bitsy-bobs on the Samelan, you can follow the Media Crew's work by clicking here)
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And regardless of what happens during the Samelan week – the good, the bad, the ugly, the disastrous, the inspiring, the ridiculous, the humorous, the distressing – all the above ingredients are what make it a Samelan, and our hearts still shed a little tear when Guruji is escorted away from the Samelan grounds on the last day.
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What would my alternative December look like? Mornings that fade into afternoons, craters in the living room sofa, a love-hate relationship with Spanish soaps and tissue boxes, too much chocolate and not enough conversation, days wading in and out as if seamlessly stitched together, too much silence and not enough reflection.
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And I realise that the bags under my eyes, the ones I am so worried about, are in fact laden with happy thoughts, joyous moments, beautiful awakenings, and so much love.
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I’ve decided to embrace the Eye Bags - they symbolise the things that make my little world oh so wonderful.

Can You Feel the Love Tonight?

I had been fixed on the idea of having a little kirtan darbar at our home for a long time – just some friends coming together to celebrate the divine. In London things like this were a lifestyle, there was one every other week in some place or other with all styles of singing/ instruments/ food (!!) and I’ve missed having that environment.
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So over the long weekend during Divali, Hargobind and I invited some of our friends over – and it was just so nice to have the sanggat in our living room, singing Guru’s praises, led by some amazing kirtanis – I’m so thankful to everyone who came; our home is blissed out with all your love!!
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Some pictures from the evening…
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our clan doing kirtan
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the sanggat in the living room

Amrit, Ajeet and Naranjan

candlelight

Belay and Indy

Pitaji leading the Guru Dev Mata, Guru Dev Pita meditation
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The one person who did most of the work but didn’t get captured in any other photos– Mataji! It’s her stressing about the details that made the event :)

the weather was lovely so we served dinner outside

some of the lads from the Redecorating Committee - Boo!

the lovely Harsohela and Gurprakash with our dear Zafar

In hopes of many such darbars in the future…minus the redecorating portion, of course – guys I don’t think my room can handle the trauma of yet another repositioning! Next time I’m going to bolt down anything that can be moved – and position Zafar to guard the door :)
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Spread the love and keep the light shining until we meet again.
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Tav Prasaad – By Thy Grace

Tuesday, 30 October 2007

Spread your wings and fly!

My brother has graduated! The family flew over to Langkawi last Friday for his Wings Presentation Ceremony - the graduation involves presenting cadets with their 'wings' that they wear on their left breast pocket - its like a license to fly.
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He’ll probably put up more details on his blog, but since I’m feeling so proud I simply have to glamorise him on mine :) What is it about girls and pilots?!
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Hargobind with his batch mates
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Our parents and grandparents
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All winged-up!

Hargobind, I love you but even more than that, I love all the benefits your flying entitles me too! ;)

With our family

Technically speaking they were not wearing graduation hats - they are actually a part of their uniform - but they couldn't resist!

Before anyone gets any ideas, let me point out that my brother was only there for the photo and did not participate in this tradition :)
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After the ceremony, Hargobind took us around for a tour of the hangar. Here he's showing off some fancy new airplane to Pilot Sr. All I could think off was hmmm... the plane looks cute but I might wreck my heels trying to get in and out of it!

Engineers in action at the hangar

The only sad thing about leaving Langkawi was leaving Artisan's - Hargobind's favourite diner on the island (which is also where we celebrated my birthday earlier this year). This is his expression of pain as he has the last slice in a looooooong time...

Right now he’s back home and alongside wrestling me for the TV remote, he's also training with Malaysia Airlines... with Guru’s grace he’ll officially start flying in a year’s time.

Don't ask him to belanja you yet though, he's still quite broke, but you can always bug me for a treat (until the charm wears off :p)